The south west winds have entered the Philippines again. Rain has been pouring since last week with only a couple of hours of respite in between. The rain could be half an hour of violent winds and downpour or half a day’s worth of calm yet penetrating drizzle.
It’s the kind of season where your activities are limited and your convenience compromised. It’s the season where you have more time to think because you have less time to enjoy outdoor leisures.
I’ve been spending most of my free time alone in my apartment. The weather has severely limited my plans. As a result, I have been suffering the pains of being left alone with my thoughts. And it’s not nice.
I guess we just need to find a way to keep ourselves company. Ah, what other ways could be there to enjoy a cold weather than a good book and hot chocolate?
Starting today I
would never anymore question why
nor would I falsely assume
why you act contrary to what you told me was true.
To be a victim of your caprice,
as excruciating the pain may be,
is something I take pride in.
Because once upon a time
you entertained the thought of you being mine.
I’ll move on, alright
but only after I’ve finished reading between the lines.
I was bitter because I never knew
sweetness until you came.
Now that you’ve left suddenly
I became my self once again.
She was chaotic,
promising a stormy weather–
and all he had was an umbrella
wishing he was prepared
and knew better.
I’m not what you need
though I still have dared,
I have all my love to give
but you only have time to spare
I never believed in heaven and hell
until I realized how blissful it is by your side
and excruciating the thought is when you’re with someone else.
And perhaps we’re only afraid to tell the truth
we don’t want our purest intentions misconstrued.
And there you came barging
at my sanity’s front door you knocked,
I opened it and to my luck,
it was you.
Dumbstrucked, I was unaware
that it was the start
You gracefully entered
And never left my heart.
There was silence before you came,
And you were a melody,
the way you intruded.
I should’ve known behind those sweet vocals
Was a siren preying and with no good intentions at all.
I’m sorry I did that, I was under duress
By who? You ask. My thoughts.
My thoughts threaten me on a daily basis.
-Overheard from a random stranger on the phone.